June was Horrible

Well... first of let's see... I ended up with two deaths in my family that were quite close to me. The first, the oldest sister of my dad- so my aunt. It was quite a shock for everyone to hear about her death. I have many fond memories of her all through my life. The second was my only first cousin on my mom's side. He was 10 years older than me and we were the only children of my mom and her sister. Now that leaves only me. His death was extremely sudden and unexpected. Mainly because he decided to take his own life. Previously for about 10 years prior- he moved to Spain and never returned. He also discontinued contact through any means with his family here in the states.

Needless to say, those two events alone threw my world into chaos and depression.

I signed up for two crafting groups that are both 3 months long and this was the second month of HPKCHC and the first month of Nerd Wars. I let down both groups because I really just haven't felt like knitting much. In fact I have been unable to complete the minimum requirements of one project a month for both. I feel really bad about this but this entire month I get up- go to work- come home- and just feel like going to bed. I have cast on a few things but I just ended up frogging and trying to restart. I apologize to all in both groups for the disappointment. The other thing is I have not been on Ravelry much this month. I am usually one to get on and check things once at a minimum or sometimes twice a day. This month, I have probably only been on a total of 10 times.

My aunt's funeral was towards the beginning of the month and it was nice being able to see all of my dad's remaining brothers and sisters (now a total of 13 including him). My cousin's memorial was this past Sunday and it felt like this whole month has been about mourning.

I am hoping that July will be much better and I am ready to move past things.

Doctor Who Swap

 The fantastic lot I received from Ladymay!!! I was super exited with everything that I kept pulling from the box. Thank you so very very much. See below for detail and descriptions.

 A wonderful knitted cowl. I love the stitch pattern and buttons. It is in a lovely blue and super warm. I received a skein of yarn that matches the cowl's yarn. I think I will knit a hat to go with the cowl. A lovely skein of several blues from Sockotta. Two fantastic skeins on the colorway New York from J. Knits which is a lovely deep inky blue. All of the yarn is so lovely and I am really enjoying the cowl.

 Yummy treats!!! The package is hidden but, yes those are Jammy Dodgers!!! Perfect in case I need to try and fool some Daleks. Gummy Bears aka Jelly Babies ;) they taste great. Chocolate- "aaaahhhh" - sooo heavenly. I thoroughly endorse that all need to try.

Doctor Who Stuffs!!! A bag from the Doctor Who Experience! I am completely jealous. 10th Doctor action figure from the final episodes for DT :( He has cuts on his face and suit- poor doctor. Doctor Who book!!! I am really looking forward to reading this. Doctor Who magazine which is so bright and has lots of activities and great pictures. A Tardis bank! That is so going on my desk. It is too cool. A Doctor Who comic book. I am going to have to head to my local comic store and look for back issues of this series- I completely missed this in the store. Last but certainly not least- a Tardis pen- look at the adorable Tardis topper!!! Barely visible above the Tardis bank is an expanding Dalek cloth. Missing from the lot are two Van Gogh postcards that were sitting behind me while I was taking pictures.

Thank you again for everything. I love my kit so very much. Absolutely everything is fantastic!!!

Teaser of Package Sent for 18+ Swap

Odd Ducks 18+ Over Swap

Warning- XXX Rated Swap Items below. Turn back now if you do not want to see!!!

Police grade handcuffs! I love them :) mmmm and they are heavy too! Absolutely perfect.

Hair clips- closest to my favorite of Gerber daisies without the evil pollen. There are actually 3 but one had already been borrowed and left the house before the picture was taken.

OMG!!! This is awesome!!! It is a flogger that has strands over 2 feet long and it is all made from recycled bike tires. I can't wait to hear the noise it makes and see the aftermath.

ROPE!!! Fabulous rope and it even comes with its own blindfold. The rope is really nice and soft. Perfect for the bindings that you want to have someone stay but not be completely uncomfortable.

Toy! Waterproof vibe. Squee! It looks great... now I just need to get some AAA batteries. Plenty of AA in the house but not AAA.

Everything all put together. "Ahhhhhhhhhhh" Lovely, right!

Thank you so very much to my wonderful and thoughtful spoiler EvilSquirrel. She rocks my socks! I love each and everything and that flogger is genius! It was totally cool getting the package one small bit by another. I love getting post. Thank you again!!!

Came Across This Pick And...

I <3 this so very much!!!

Odd Dream... but I'm In Love With It :)

Okay so I just took a bit of a nap and while sleeping I was dreaming that the song 'Sway' by Coal Chamber was playing - lyrics and all, it was like I was actually listening to the song while sleeping... but I wasn't. In fact I have not heard that song in a bit yet I woke up with the lyrics and music of the song going through my head.

I was outside dancing in jeans and a tank top, it was dark out, I had no shoes on because I could feel the ground with my bare feet. There was a bonfire off in the distance a little. And I was dancing with Jensen Ackles (Dean from Supernatural). Yeah... do you get why I am kind of in love with this dream? (Well I totally was before Jensen anyways too.)

So he is completely spinning me across the ground as an awesomely kick-@$$ dancer can. It was like I was mirroring his actions and it was more of a game of cat and mouse that just seemed to flow so well to the music. Oh if only I could find a guy (that's not gay) to dance like that with me in real life I would love it. So yeah... completely odd and off the wall dream but love the music and "cast".

* that was not a hit against gay men. I <3 you all. But I want to dance like that with a straight man the same way that you would prefer to dance with another guy over a chick with boobs (eek! Thanks Nick ^_^).

Minion!!!