June was Horrible

Well... first of let's see... I ended up with two deaths in my family that were quite close to me. The first, the oldest sister of my dad- so my aunt. It was quite a shock for everyone to hear about her death. I have many fond memories of her all through my life. The second was my only first cousin on my mom's side. He was 10 years older than me and we were the only children of my mom and her sister. Now that leaves only me. His death was extremely sudden and unexpected. Mainly because he decided to take his own life. Previously for about 10 years prior- he moved to Spain and never returned. He also discontinued contact through any means with his family here in the states.

Needless to say, those two events alone threw my world into chaos and depression.

I signed up for two crafting groups that are both 3 months long and this was the second month of HPKCHC and the first month of Nerd Wars. I let down both groups because I really just haven't felt like knitting much. In fact I have been unable to complete the minimum requirements of one project a month for both. I feel really bad about this but this entire month I get up- go to work- come home- and just feel like going to bed. I have cast on a few things but I just ended up frogging and trying to restart. I apologize to all in both groups for the disappointment. The other thing is I have not been on Ravelry much this month. I am usually one to get on and check things once at a minimum or sometimes twice a day. This month, I have probably only been on a total of 10 times.

My aunt's funeral was towards the beginning of the month and it was nice being able to see all of my dad's remaining brothers and sisters (now a total of 13 including him). My cousin's memorial was this past Sunday and it felt like this whole month has been about mourning.

I am hoping that July will be much better and I am ready to move past things.